What is this paper I'm writing about? This really cool topic of Ah-hoc networks and their routing algorithms. I look at papers that talk about the different routing algorithms;I summarize them in my paper and then talk about their performance. now, i am feeling like i don't really care about this stuff at this time. its not that i'll never care, its just that i'd rather be having a wondeful conversation with a friend, or be watching some fun tv show or movie, or be making out with my love. but alas, i have this paper due Thursday. How am I to finish it properly while still being able to statisfy my need for enjoyment? and this need for enjoyment, is it getting too out of hand? i've been having fun so much this last couple of months. its unbelievable. do I need to fail something before my mind realizes the importance of focus and discipline? It IS possible to be a focused individual, but yet enjoy his/her time when having fun. But it seems that with me, i'm always wanting to have fun, and only during special occassions, occasions which i myself am not able to self-summon, am I able to do an excellent job at focusing and getting the job done. I LOVE those moments. Those moments are God-sent, they are why am thus far so successful. God loves me at those moments, i wonder what i do right. but alas it seems very random, no pattern. And it has nothing with me being good and moral. I wish it did, cuz that would give me great incentive to always be good.

A tear a created from my eyes. I wipe it with my right hand fingertips. I rub my eyes and yawn. I apprecaite the envionment i'm in right now. Starbuck coffee house, by the waterside, cool temperatured room, free wireless, good coffee, a loving feeling in my heart. If someone was by my side right now, I'd give them a big hug.